Remember
We come to this plane of existence in full remembrance of who and what we are, but we quickly learn to forget, and cling to the false reality of this place. Each month, I offer a reminder of the ever enduring Spirit that is YOU!
- Wiah
Remembers for
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Daylight
December 5, 2006 -
Deprivation…
November 4, 2006 -
Waiting For The World To Change
October 8, 2006 -
I Am The TAO
September 12, 2006 -
CHOICES and ACTIONS, Fear and Uncertainty
August 5, 2006 -
Changing and Re-Defining Our Relationships
July 11, 2006 -
The Eye Of My Hurricane
June 5, 2006 -
Remember Temple, Remember the TAO
May 14, 2006 -
Blessings Of The Dhammapda
April 1, 2006 -
LIVE? LIVE. LIVE!
March 14, 2006 -
Age 5 Syndrome
February 7, 2006 -
A Remember for Children
January 14, 2006
Deprivation…
…THE STATE OF PERPETUAL DENIAL OF THE PRIMORDIAL STATE OF ETERNAL FULFILLMENT.
“Deprivation of Self creates a never ending hunger that increases with each passing day and every attempt to satiate.”
Deprivation permeates and takes many manifestations; one manifestation that is very common is the held state of being “not good enough”. “I’m Not Good Enough”…because I exist in constant deprivation.
I am “nothing” so therefore I must become “something” to be “good enough”…But with all my attempts to “become” I constantly fall short of permanent transformation.
My body and face are not good enough as they are, so I must make changes to be “good enough” …But no matter how hard I try, there is always something missing, and my feelings of being good enough become more fleeting and more scarce. Therefore, I must try harder to create that perfect image that never seems to manifest.
I must achieve to become “good enough” :
Achievement in the collection of knowledge and information… it fails me because there always seems to be something I don’t know and areas of conversation where my knowledge is “not good enough” or useless. Therefore I am “not good enough” or useless… I, therefore, must try to acquire more knowledge and information.
Material Achievement… it fails me because no matter how much I have, it is never “good enough”. No matter how much I collect, it always seems to be slipping away, so I have to work harder to make up for what is being constantly lost.
Physical Achievement… it fails me because no matter how good I am at a specific activity there is always someone better. No matter how good I am or how hard I try, my physical body changes and, once again I am “not good enough”.
My incessant need for “fulfillment/approval” leads me back to my original starvation. My constant lack of fulfillment exists as a background colour to my instances of fleeting fulfillment… the desperate hunger of deprivation endures…